Forty One Years
This time last year I was a little anxious to be hitting 40 (my 41st birthday is a little later this week)…
I didn’t want to celebrate my birthday, for the first time I could remember. I wasn’t excited. I felt that I would wake up and everything would somehow be different. I was a little hard on myself in terms of what I had and hadn’t achieved and all the years which had passed.
I hit 40 and breathed a sigh of relief….I didn’t feel different nor did I look it (hilarious perhaps that I thought somehow I would overnight!) I could continue and keep growing, learning and healing. Nothing had changed!
At 20, I thought that I would have figured it all out by 30. It’s only now that I can truly say I will never figure anything out. I am learning so much, my belief system has changed, my views on life and people is constantly growing but mostly I am looking inwards and learning so much about myself. I am grateful for each day I have on earth and for the love of my son. I am grateful for this incredible time in the world where anything is possible; where expansion and spiritual growth is encouraged and supported.
I don’t watch the news often, because I won’t allow myself to see only negative in the world, to be fed one dimensional perspectives of fear and hate. I don’t want to limit myself to seeing bad, when I know there is so much good.
I am grateful for amazing friends, incredible mentors, healers and guides who have come into my life and inspired me.
So, this year I will be celebrating my birthday with lots of chocolate cake, good friends, bad wine, loud music and a lot of love and gratitude.